Am I wrong

Is it bad that I have some hatred for my mom. I have a almost 2 yr old I’m 19 n whenever I found out I was pregnant I wanted a abortion but she wouldn’t sign n her dad left me so I’m now a single parent. I’m not ready for this every couple of months I get like this really frustrated and depressed. I love my baby not saying I don’t but I wish I would’ve waited. N no I’m not putting her up for adoption. I just feel bad for feeling this way. I see other people my age having fun n when I do go out my mom gets mad but idk I wanna live my life 😣 also her dad doesn’t send money he’s in another country so I’m alone. N when I try to tell my mom how I feel she’s like no I had 4 kids on my own w no help or she says I kept y’all I didn’t abort I’m just like first that was ur choice not mine n everyone should be able to chose it’s not ur body or life. N she gets mad n says I shouldn’t have opened up my legs or that it’s my friends that are putting things in my head but ive been like this for a while now it’s not them. I swear I never even wanted kids they’re so annoying. I do take really good care of my daughter tho.

Thanks for the comments even bad ones I like hearing anyone’s advice and I know I knew the consequences from sex but I had a choice I could’ve aborted but my mom didn’t sign since I was underage she doesn’t believe in that so I had no other choice that’s what gets me mad that she took that from me 😞 I found out I was pregnant on my 17 bday

Lol I didn’t sneak around my mom let him spend the night whenever also I told my mom a lot

Of times I wanted birthcontrol n she needed to take me since I needed a parent but she never wanted to go bc she was always w her bf my now stepdad

She gets mad bc she says I can’t trust babysitters n she also gets mad when I ask if she can watch her or if my sister watches her. Even when I tried to get a job she would get mad. I try to put my baby on a schedule w naps m she messes it up n says she’s slept enough. I don’t say anything bc it is her house..

No I wanted to get birthcontrol before I even got pregnant n once I got pregnant I wanted a abortion I had no idea you needed a parent w you