Anxious pregnant mess

I just need someone to say I'm not alone.

Had my first prenatal appointment for baby#2. My first labor and delivery was absolutely traumatizing and my son is only 8months old now. I thought I was ready for baby#2 and believe me I want this baby more than anything on earth.

BUT walking into the clinic today I was a mess, luckily for the masks I could hold my composure in the waiting room. However when I entered the exam room and they started testing my blood pressure I broke. I bailed my eyes out and couldn't breath, I have never felt such anxiety. For a second my body was telling me to literally run and I was seconds away from running out of the clinic.

I had to ask everyone to leave the room so I could just cry for a second and regain myself. They ended up not doing a full exam because they could see how rattled I was.

Has anyone else experienced such anxiety for second pregnancies or pregnancies following a traumatic birth?