Is this only just me?!

My boyfriend loves to give attention the every detail of my body . For example being intimate I was horny at the time and I told him to just stick it in I was already Wet so no lube . Anyways he said no he wants to use a toy, he wants to eat me out before anything but idk why But I’m sooo insecure like I like the thought of it but I’m just 🥴🤢