This is my 4th pregnancy just had a beautiful baby girl that just turned 2 in January found out a week before her birthday I was expecting baby #4 to be honest I didn't want anymore kids after her 3 was my tie breaker I fully blame myself for getting pregnant again because I wanted to wait til I moved back to Dallas to get my tubes tied which is next month. I been trying to get emotionally involved with this pregnancy like I was with my other 3 pregnancy I had my 1 st appt. 2wks ago and found out I was further along then I thought I was 11wks 4 day just rounding off my 3rd month I got and ultrasound my 1st appt. Due to me being so far along and I though once I saw the baby I would feel that connection but I didn't reality just set in that I'm having a 4 the child and I'm really not ready or in the mind space to process this I will say I do love my baby just not excited about this pregnancy any other moms been here before or in the same boat does it go away or how did you deal with it I really want to enjoy my last pregnancy.