In 2019, I was 14/25 (yes recent) and was in a terrible relationship with a dude. We were together for a year and whenever problems arised, I posted about it here to get further insight.. gosh it is so sad. Last week I talked to my current partner about the sexual assault I experienced and realized I was raped. Multiple times by him. Not only that but constantly sexually assaulted, gaslit, manipulated, etc. I was going through old community posts from 2019 and found posts about if I'm in the wrong about not wanting sex... why sex hurts (duh because you didn't want it!)... if my clothing was too revealing... if I should let him push my boundaries... about him manipulating me into sex...etc. I will find screenshots.

(Side note, I'm 16 now and have been in a ((genuinely!)) healthy relationship for a year and slowly healing. My boundaries are solid and I know my worth. No man will control me like that again.)