Ttc feeling helpless

My and my partner started ttc for the first time last May, we fell in the first month much to our complete shock!

I had an early scan at 7 weeks and had a heartbeat, at my 12 week in scan in August I was told there was no heartbeat and I’d had a missed miscarriage at 8wk 5days, completely shattered, unexpected and heartbroken. It’s been extremely hard on the both of us.

3 weeks after my d and c I was told I’d had a partial molar pregnancy, we were given the all clear in October started ttc in November.

It’s just been the 4th cycle of ttc & af has just come. I’m trying to dust myself off and be positive but I just want to be pregnant!

I know so many other women out there feel the same and keep going because that’s our only choice, but how do you do it month after month? I’ve been wfh for a year this month like many others and the whole month of ovulation, ttw and period feels like mental torture. I’m questioning if somethings wrong with me, why isn’t it happened. Feel very lost and my partner is taking each month extremely hard too.

Any advice would be really appreciate x