Sad and Scared

I had an ultrasound today at 37+3. Baby is still in complete breech. I’m feeling absolutely gutted. I know there’s a chance she could still flip, but that chance is so low. I don’t know what else to do. I’m walking, sitting on an exercise ball, and doing the spinning babies regimen every day.

I don’t want a c section. I don’t want the scar. I don’t want to live the rest of my life hating myself and my body. And I hate that I am blaming the baby.

My OB said an ECV and vaginal breech birth could only be done with frank breech. From my research, it does seem like complete breech should at least be possible for an ECV.

I didn’t ask for this pregnancy. It’s taken me this long to accept the pregnancy. And now it feels like I’m back at square one.

Thanks for reading. I know this post is disorganized but I have no one to talk to. No one understands what I’m going through.