Am i a bad mom

We just found out the sex of baby #2 and it’s another boy. I’m a little upset. My Gram passed away who i was very close to and the baby’s due date was her birthday, I’d name the baby after her and just was set on it being a girl. I’m not going to lie i cried. But after i realized the baby is healthy and happy i felt better. I’m just so worried how do i love another boy as much as our 1st....we had trouble having Kayden and we prayed for him. I feel like a terrible mom. 😔