Can I just rent for a moment?!

I have so much to rant about and I don’t even know where to start.

I’m so unappreciated and being taken for granted every single day and I feel like I can’t just walk away .. and do what?!

I live with my partner of four years. He never cooks or cleans.

My brother lives with us, he came to stay for a few months and before you know it, it’s been nearly 8 months. He’s 23 years old and doesn’t have a job and hasn’t even attempted to look as ‘he doesn’t want to work during a pandemic’.

He sometimes helps around the house, so at least I can’t complain about that, but sometimes no input from him either. Whenever I ask him for updates of ‘have you found anything’ or ‘do you know what you’re wanting to do work wise, what are your plans?’ He gets defensive and doesn’t give me proper answers.

He acts like I owe him something and he speaks often disrespectfully to me. Like a few days ago I was in a bad mood and se said ‘ what’s wrong are you on your period’.

My partner has become best buddies with our flat mate and often plays games with him and I feel pushed out.

My partner sometimes makes comments about my brother which I don’t like, and my brother sometimes makes comments about my partner, which I don’t like. I’m getting really wound up hearing their shit about each other. It puts me in such a bad mood and then they both spend the rest of the day ‘unhappy’ with my moodiness, but they’re both too dumb to notice it’s because of them.

I do the cooking every single night, for three grown men. And do the dishes after 6/7 times.

I clean the bathroom every second day, scrubbing everyone else’s sh*t stains in the toilet bowl. No one else will.

I’ve tried not doing anything for a day or two but I cant help myself because I like the space I’m living in to be clean.

I’m so fking angry and I wish I could just pack a bag and leave but honestly have nowhere else to go at the moment.

I need some words of wisdom please.