Not pregnant (again)

The thing that really messes me up the most is how my body and mind (and hormones) betray me every month. This month I swore that this “felt different” this cycle. I “just knew” I was pregnant. And I’m so furious at myself for letting myself believe that. I know that pms is the same as early pregnancy symptoms and yet every f*ing month I fall for the trick.

I don’t know how to stop myself from feeling so insane every month. It makes me want to give up.

Every single one of my friends got pregnant accidentally. I am the only one left out of my friend group that isn’t a mother. Why is something that is so simple for everyone else so hard for me?