SIL Anxiety

So my sister in law went into labor with her first child at 26 weeks. He was so tiny and in the hospital for months!! Well she got pregnant within about 7 months of giving birth to her first child.

They have stitched her cervix closed with this one and this morning she rushed to the hospital having contractions she is only like 23 weeks pregnant. The doctors have told her her baby will not survive if he is born this early.

I don’t know how to feel other than terrified. I feel so selfish but if she loses the baby how am I supposed to be around her being pregnant. I have had 4 miscarriages and this rainbow baby is my last child no matter the outcome, so I want to be happy and celebrate this pregnancy. If something goes wrong with her it’s hard to celebrate.