When you’re in extreme pain do you do dumb crap?

so yesterday I spent the entire day at the ER because I was in a lot of pain and because they had an extremely busy day.

And I am remembering things that I did now, now that I have slept off the morphine.

I was in ALOT of pain, the type of pain that preoccupies your thoughts. I don’t scream and cry, I stare at the wall and get dizzy from my pain.

And I kept doing really dumb things lmfao

I managed to soak myself with a broken faucet. Ok. I soaked myself and the floor so I cleaned up the floor.

And I have to wear a mask and I literally tried to eat with the mask on, like I had a granola bar and tried to shove it in my face with my mask on. Because I forgot I had it on. 🙃

I did not only do this once. I ate a piece of gum after, and tried to shove that through my mask too. I also almost ripped out my IV because I kept forgetting that I was connected to it

I am so thankful that I had someone to drive me to the ER so that I didn’t have to drive myself like THAT. In pain, and very stupid. Once I was given morphine, my sense started returning because I wasn’t in so much pain

I am embarrassed of myself lol