What would you guys advise me?

I have been with my bf since I was 24 and I'm going to be 30 next year. I only see him once a week... and it's been like that since I started dating him... due to our schedudle... the only time I see him more is when we go on vacation....

Today I just lost it... we were talking aboit something casual and he told me to STFU... and that's when I lost it. I told him "

I think you call me retarded and a fool all the time because you know thats how you do me, walk over me, and treat me like a piece of shit and I'M STILL FUCKIN HERE. You don't respect me one bit in this relationship, you don't treat me how a woman should be treated, YOU ARE NEVER NICE TO ME BUT CALL ME NAMES. IDN WHAT THE FUCK IM DOING OR WHAT YOU EVEN WANT OUT OF THIS. YOU GOT ME ON HOLD FOR YOU AND ANNA AND YOU ARE FUCKIN SELFISH FIR THAT. I'M THE ONE FUCKIN TURNING 30 WITH NO KIDS BUT YOU GAVE ANNA A KID. ANNA AINT GONNA BE THE ONE STRUGGLING TO HAVE KIDS BUT ME! YOU DON'T GIVE ME NOTHING BUT HEARTACHE AND I'M STILL FUCKIN TRYING BUT YOU STILL BELITTLE ME. FUCK MY LIFE !!! "...

I'm just tired you guys.. he doesnt do anything for me.. I'm the one that spends every penny in this relationshiop.. from paying for meals to buying anything and everything he wants but he wont call me... we only txts me.. he doesnt share anything with me... i don't even know what he does..

He txted me and said I need to leave and just cussing me out...

I said you're about to be 40 and I'm abt to be 30 and I am just worried I want a family kids but you dont share anything with me. I said I just want you to show me you want this and im the one you want.. and he txted me saying" I AINT SHOWING U SHIT! IF U DONT KNOW BY NOW 🖕🏾"

Now hes ignoring me. I'm the one that's been trying for the past 6-7 years.. I'm just worried and scared coz he never talks to me about anything and doesnt say what he wants in this relationship or where we are heading... everytime i express how i feep he gets anry and ignores me...

The only way he would talk to me again is if I give him money and i really don't want to do that this time.