First Baby -My Story (please don’t judge)

I found out I was pregnant Jan 14, 2021. When I told the father, he was not happy at all. He even encouraged me to abort our child. I didn’t know how to feel about that, but I knew I didn’t really want to take that route again. (Yes I had one abortion, so please don’t judge). I was stalling when it came to calling an abortion clinic because I felt a bit uneasy about going through that again. Having an abortion caused trauma for me, and I sure as hell didn’t want to do that again. Finally, I called an abortion clinic and had the date set to have a consultation. As I was approaching the door to go inside, a few protestors wanted to talk to me. They encouraged me to go to a free clinic to see the baby. I agreed. When I saw my baby for the first time, I cried my eyes out. My baby was moving his/her legs and arms. At that moment, I knew I loved my baby. Nothing else mattered to me anymore. I made the decision to tell the father I decided to keep the baby, and he lost it. A lot of things were said. It hurt me a lot, but my baby mattered so much more. I’m so afraid for the baby to be a girl because I don’t want her to endure the pain that I’m currently going through, but I’ll be the best mother I can be. When I hold my baby for the first time I know that it’ll be a lifetime change for me. I’m ready for you baby boy or girl. 💕💙