ughhhh help

i love my boyfriend. i really do. but i cant do this anymore. we never get to see each other, he never compliments me, and when i see him in class, its like im invisible, he’s always just with his friends. im constantly trying to make plans and they always fall through. he makes my heart skip a beat but it feels so one sided. i dont know how to approach him about it. ive thought about restarting our relationship and trying to do it right but i dont know if he’ll go along with it, how to bring it up, or if its even worth it.

why the hell is he even still here? what does he want? i dont even have anything to offer and we haven’t even actually kissed so it cant be my body. he obviously doesnt care for romance, so its not my heart hes after. all i can think of is him sticking around because im a wreck. i have anxiety and a sh addiction and what apparently is called loss of autonomy because ✨trauma✨. and thats just the shit he knows about.

please, i don’t know what to do, i just cant do this. hes so amazing but i know this isnt going to work, not if we stay stuck like this. and i know im not good enough for him. i just need to figure this out.