Worried for baby

I’m constantly worried about if my baby is okay or if I or we will make it to the end . No, it’s not because I’m a FTM but because I have severe depression and anxiety. I found out I was pregnant while I was in the psych ward. I tried to take my life not knowing there was a baby in there. I can’t believe I let myself get to that point. I don’t want pity I just wanted to vent I pray that me and my baby makes it to the end because this baby saved my life, gave me a reason to live. I will never forgive myself for trying to give up. I just pray that God gives me the strength to move forward. I also pray for any other moms who have been struggling with depression as well