Relationship

So where to start. I need some opinion on this. About a year ago I had a missed miscarriage at 13 weeks. I do have children of my own but my fiancé doesn’t and his 37. He is just the sweetest man to his baby nieces and he wanted a baby girl which we found out our baby would have been a baby girl! At 8 weeks we heard her hearty❤️ he was so in a Awww moment and he couldn’t believe he made that. I felt loved was all around use. Then at my 13 weeks appointment the doctor wanted to hear the heart beat on his Doppler and wasn’t able to. He went and grabbed the ultrasound machine and baby wasn’t there. He send me to go and get a better reading in the hospital and after 2 days the doctor called me in to have a appointment. At that time my fiancé was away from home because of work. But I was informing him of everything. God only knows what he was going through and not being able to be with me. So I go in to the appointment and the doctor told me I had a missed miscarriage. That the babies ❤️ stopped and my body wasn’t responding thinking I’m still pregnant 🤰 and that’s why I still had my horrible morning sickness. He gave me the medication to pass everything, my body only did have the work. My bleeding would go and come back. I was like this for about 1 month and a half until one day I was passing this golf ball size cloths and I was this is not right. I change OBGY doctor and he told me I needed a D&C ASAP! That same day he sent me straight to the ER and booked me. I thought finally this is over with. But nope 2 months later I was still have issues and my HCG was going down slowly and in the pathology report they couldn’t role out if I had GTD but everything else came out normal so they had no clue why I lost the baby. Doc treated me like if I had GTD and re do the D&C a second time and that worked. After 5 months I finally felt it was over and could finally both can heel from this and start trying after the doctor stoped drowning me my blood to make sure I didn’t have GTD. He gave use the ok to start trying and we feel pregnant 2 months later we were so happy but that ended in a blighted Ovum. 2 nd miscarriage but this time my body reacted as it should and passed naturally. And the doctor wants us to try one more time before referring us to a specialist. My fiancé has been my rock but he has changed when we make love. Before all this we would do it constantly and now it’s every 4 days or ones a week and at times when we are doing out of nowhere he goes soft and he says he doesn’t know why this is happening. We have talked about it and he tells me he loves my like no other even more than before and he is very attracted to me and wants me. And I know he does but I’m frustrated that when I want sec we can’t do it. Or if I’m in the mood he brushes it off when he would never hold back I just wanted things to be like they were before 😭 I I’m so sorry 😞 for this long post but this has been my life for the past year of my miscarriage and I didn’t know where to turn to. I will gladly appreciate your comments and advice for any of you that are or have been in my shoes 👞 how did you go about this and what was your guys outcome. Thanks you in advance.