Scared

Okay so, this app has helped me quiet a bit through life and such. But guys, this is one of the most serious talks. I feel like im stuck in a bad dream and I cant wake myself up. ... So. Here we go.

My husbands mom passed away from Non Hodgkins Lymphoma almost 20 years ago. So, due to that history, they sent off blood of his to be tested. Well, yesterday, the nurse called him back and said they were sending his blood to a hemotologist because they found something of concern DUE to FAMILY MEDICAL history. Ive felt sick since he told me and actually threw up a few minutes after he told me. Guys, I cant imagine what hes feeling right now but I am terrified and extremely on edge ready to blow. I cant imagine my life without him. I cant even think about it because he is. Everything. Guys i just need some points on how to help him or how to make him feel okay. I just dont know. Im just throwing this out there: ramblings of a mad woman. Just any advice about any part of this situation. We have twin girls that are almost a year old and im just scared. I know things are much different than 20 years ago but I dont FEEL that way. Does that make sense? Like, my head knows it, my heart not so much. My heart doesnt know shit right now but 🤢