I think I want to leave him…

We’ve been together almost 4 years and I want to leave.

We’ve had a pretty good relationship but he’s done a lot of stuff to make me not trust him. Well we’re engaged now and as time goes on…. all I do is think about life with him long term. I still don’t trust him, I still check his phone… like who wants to go into a marriage like that?!

He’s never “cheated” … that I know of. But he’s talked to girls, got a girls number, sent girls inappropriate messages, flirted with his ex….

I’m just tired of just sucking it up and saying “it’s ok”. But it’s not ok! And I finally feel strong enough to say that.

I know he loves me and I love him. But is that enough?!