Yes, another porn post.

My husband and I started dating 5 years ago. Within the first I would say 4-6 months porn was introduced to our relationship by him. I am not into porn. We would watch it together very rarely during sex but I was uncomfortable during it and he knew as I told him this. He kept telling me to give it a chance etc. within a few months I stood my ground and i said porn is not for me and I’m not comfortable with it. With that said, he never brought it up in our sex life again but I could see on tv history etc that he still watched frequently. He at the time worked night shift so it didn’t bother me so much since we didn’t see eachother so much but it definitely hurt me. Move forward to today, we’ve been trying to have a child for over 2 years and he is no longer on night shift. We have been doing ivf for 6 months (has failed so far). He watches porn at least 5 times a week and gets himself off to it. We’ve had sex 3 times in the last 3 weeks. Believe me, I have mentioned so many times we have poor intimacy lately and it makes me upset that he is choosing porn over me. (We can get pregnant naturally- just keeps ending in miscarriage). Like how does he expect to have a baby if we don’t have sex! And yes he very much so wants a baby. And before you say maybe it’s me- I wear lingerie, I give him head, we have good sex when we have it, my body has not changed since meeting him, I send him sexy photos, he records our sex sometimes, etc. It just seems he prefers porn over me and when I speak to him about it he gets so defensive and denies everything. I’m at a loss. I don’t orgasm from sex- I just enjoy sex with him. He always always orgasms from sex- yet he’s the one straying to porn. I’m just hurt.