Not too excited

33 weeks and got excited for the baby shower but not the baby. The dad doesn't help me with anything and only thinks about himself. Waiting for him I've been delayed gathering everything. Owes money for the kids he has. I have dejavu to my first relationship of my ten year old because he turned out to be a deadbeat dad. Different this second time around with regards to excitement, support, and overall mental well-being. This guy really fooled me and I fell for it. I think that disappointments me the most. Any words of encouragement?