A little confused 😟

I met a guy a few days ago, well when I first saw him I instantly liked him. I mean like, got butterflies. I was outside with friends as he was walking by. He ended up staying and chatting the whole time we were out there because the kids wanted to play with his dog.

I was the quiet one while the person I was with was talkative and being flirtatious and he was chatting with her and I assumed he was kind of into her.

Long story short, he was actually interested in me but he said I seemed quiet or shy. We ended up chatting a few days later, exchanged numbers and I ended up at his place last night and well I got lost in the moment and we had sex (unprotected stupidly 😓) because it’s been a while for me.

While at his place, he kept giving vibes that he’s really into me and even said, “I like you a lot” and I think you’re very attractive.

It was nice to be wanted and he seemed genuine about it but guys can say anything for sex right? I know, I’ve been used/played before. But, I honestly felt he was sincere about it.

Well, today he never texted me so I got the courage to and said thanks for sharing your desert with me. (We just had some ice cream)

All he said was “you’re welcome” it seemed kind of stand offish or like he wasn’t really interested in hearing from me.

I don’t like to bother people really so I just said enjoy your day. He never responded.

I don’t think I did anything wrong or seemed pushy or anything. I’m aware that all he probably wanted was sex and used charming words.

I guess that’s what happens when you’re so lonely and depressed and you constantly get ghosted by guys right? haha I’m used to being used though 😓 I’ve accepted it honestly. But at the same time my depression isn’t letting me forget it to the point where I’m ready to break down. (I hate these moments lol)

So, to stop myself from sending endless texts or seeming aggressive for answers I just deleted his number. My anxiety wouldn’t have helped at all haha