Bitter sweet memorial day...

This memorial day was very bitter sweet. I'm a gay dad going through a divorce with my husband. We've been together 14 years. 2 of those years I found out he was cheating with someone barely.... He wanted a divorce because he's bored with our life... I signed the papers and before giving them to him I begged him not to leave me... I told him I would try even harder to put excitement back in our marriage... He just snatched the divorce papers and told me to stop being pathetic. He had the kids for memorial day and I drove 6 hours to my hometown... I went to the lake he proposed to me at. I haven't taken off my wedding ring since he told me he wanted a divorce. He spent 10k on the wedding ring. Some of the diamonds are different colors to make the rainbow pride flag.... For the first time in months... I took it off. It was time for me to stop holding on to these 14 years... He already let me go and if happy with a young dude he cheated on me with... The more I hold on... The more pathetic I am... So I took my ring and threw it in the water... My sister said I should have sold it... It may not make sense, but selling it would feel "right" for me. What felt right was coming here where I was proposed to and throwing it in the water. If someone in need of money finds it and pawns it... Oh well... I'm letting go of him... Of 14 years together.. of my marriage.. of the only normal in my life..