So i have a low lying placenta which I had checked at 32 weeks. The consultant wants me to come back at 35 weeks to have it checked again however he said I can ask for an elective C-Section if that's now what I have my mind set on. I have a lot of fears about a vaginal birth. I attended gynaecology for around 2-3 years due to a narrow vagina, however the consultant said this wouldn't affect child birth, my baby will come out anyway. I am worried about having severe tears if my vagina is already narrow. I am worried my baby will get stuck in the birth canal for too long without oxygen and end up disabled (this happened to a girl I know).

I feel guilty that I won't have the experience of a vaginal childbirth, that feeling of relief when the baby is placed on your chest or the feeling proud of yourself for going through the whole labour. Has anyone else ever felt like this?

I think for my mental health the C-section is best as I will just constantly worry that something will happen to my baby in normal labour that could have been avoided. I know there are risks with a C-section but I think I would rather have a planned C-section than go through labour and baby getting distressed and for the birth to end in an emergency C-section.

What's your thoughts? Are my feeling of guilt common?