We are on night 4 of vacation. I have only slept an average of 3.5 hours each night since we left home. And only 4 hrs the night before we left. My husband sleeps like the dead through all of Ava's shenanigans. And she has been having a lot of shenanigans. We tried having her pack n play in the living room part of the hotel but she kept screaming the whole night. So we brought the pack n play in the bedroom with us and she just stays up trying to get our attention and playing. She ended up in the bed with us (which she hasn't since she was 8 months old) the other night and she slept okay. But I did not sleep at all. I was shoved all the way at at the edge of the bed and had no pillow or blanket and her nasty bunny in my face. I'm so exhausted and having a hard time enjoying any aspect of this "vacation". It feels like hell. We still have 3 more nights here.

I'm at the point where I don't want to keep trying for baby #2 anymore.

I'm in a bad place mentally.

Please pray for me to find some way to get through these next 4 days.