My father

I’m 27, married, and fully settled down. My husband and I are at a good place right now: dealing with fertility and some minor health set backs. Finally I broke down and told him how suicide was on my mind dealing with my miscarriages, i feel as if I’m finally healing since telling him that. My father plays a big role in my daily thoughts due to how he was verbally abusive to me and my family when I was little. Now, he still continues to guilt trip me on coming down to Florida(where he decided he wanted to live). He called me a couple days ago saying that’s why I have vacation time, he hasn’t seen me in over a year, and how distant I have been. Considering I was and am still trying to heal from everything he struck a nerve. I felt like I was 10 again and felt the immense pressure and guilt. I got off the phone with him and just started screaming! I was so upset, I was in a great please and bam. He ruined it. Everyday is a complete struggle mentally for me, but I’m doing better! I constantly talk to my husband on now im feeling and what my thoughts are including my father’s behavior. I just can’t stand that man. He’s my father, but I just can’t seem to have any respect for him.