I can’t believe this is happening again..

I 2018 I suffered an ectopic that caused me to lose my left tube, in 2019 I conceived and had a normal pregnancy and gave birth to a healthy baby boy. A few weeks ago I found out I was pregnant and something just hasn’t seemed right, started spotting and cramping a little I was hoping I was just being paranoid. Last night I came to the ER and I can’t believe they are telling me I am having ANOTHER EXTOPIC in my remaining tube. I think I caught it in time so we are trying Methotrexate first in hopes that it will work because if I go to surgery there is a good chance they will have to take the tube. I thought I felt defeated after losing one tube I will just DIE if the other has to be removed too. I’m devasted I’ve been here going on 15 hours and all I wanna do is go home and cuddle my baby... oh and I can’t breastfeed my son for a week because of the meds, that’s gonna be fun.... smh 🤦🏽‍♀️