Contemplating Abortion at 9 weeks

There are several reasons but the main one is being so sick that I’m at risk for losing my job and house. Im in a housing program and they will begin building in the fall but if I lose my job I will no longer be eligible. I’ve never been this sick with my previous pregnancies. I’ve gotten 3 abortions in the past and I have two living children. I have no support from the dad or my parents sadly. I really do want this baby as I’ve already announced it in social media early on. I just didn’t expect the pregnancy to be so hard that I’m at risk at losing my job and home. If I go through with the procedure I do not want to get pregnant ever again. *I live in NC which is an At Will state so even though they can’t fire me based on my pregnancy they can say whatever and I still be fired! I have several medications and I’m still really sick, I’m dehydrated and barely can keep pills down. I’ve already racked up a $4,000 hospital bill. I swear we are not appreciated enough for what we put our bodies through to produce children. Nobody even understands HG in pregnancy other than those of us with it. I’m miserable