Hi ladies. Been on medication since January and am so exhausted of continuous cycles of negative tests and AF showing it’s ugly head. My newsfeed just is babies and more babies everywhere I turn. To top off the icing on the cake, I am getting frustrated with the care of my doctors office. The receptionists mostly contribute to my anxiety. They never relay messages correctly, or they forget. I have only had an actual appointment with the doctor himself three times since I’ve been taking medicine, and there’s not really any hope of any new changes he wants to recommend. Facility I go too does the creighton model and tracks CM. They haven’t even sent me the chart I’m suppose to use even asking for it three times. Still awaiting blood work results to see if I ovulated and haven’t got it yet and my period is due now, so I don’t know if it’ll even matter to me once I finally receive it. There lack of push makes me feel un-important and like another number on the block of woman experiencing infertility but not important. I feel defeated, hopeless, and sad. I’m hoping that maybe someone out there is feeling the same levels of frustration. I hang on to the hope that it’ll happen when it’s meant too, but at the same time have a gut feeling I’m not meant to be a birth-mom.