I had to let him go

I had to, he wasn’t being fair to me and wasn’t trying as hard as me for us. He gave up on us, I had a feeling for a while now I just didn’t want to admit it and let him go. On top of that I’ve been dealing with things going on at home and just everything hasn’t been good. I’ve almost ran away from home multiple times, and just recently I’ve been thinking about committing suicide. I just can’t take it anymore, especially with relationships it’s literally, not even joking…the same exact story every-time. It gets old and I’m tired of being unhappy with people who don’t want to be happy with me. I had already been very depressed but him leaving was breaking point of my mentality. I feel like I’m never enough for anything or anyone, I don’t feel like living in a world like this, call me selfish, I don’t care anymore. I just hate my life and the direction it’s going and I just want the pain to end.