I just need to vent

I have PCOS and just found out I have super high cholesterol so I have changed my diet and started exercising…so I’m not really supposed to get pregnant right now even tho we want to 😩😩 I am 32 I’m not getting younger! This is my first ever positive ovulation test (I have irregular or no periods because of PCOS) and I can’t even use it 😩😩 I am so upset.

Going into pregnancy with high cholesterol means higher risk of preeclampsia (which I almost had with my first baby before all of this) toxemia, pregnancy naturally raises cholesterol anyway and the cholesterol medicine I just got put on is a class X drug for pregnancy. THIS IS TORTURE.

I almost want to say eff it, get pregnant and see what happens but I also have a 4 year old to consider

Riddle me frustrated