Rape trigger warning

Today my child’s father raped me after coming to my house at 1 in the morning and forcing me to come out bc of some made up excuse to beat me. He abused me my entire pregnancy and after. Cheated on me stole my money. I found someone new after many months being single. Just dating for now. He knows how he was acting how he acts.., but I don’t want to tell him I was raped. I’m not on birth control he wants to trap me again.. I’m so sad idk what to do I want to continue on normally but I feel bad like I cheated but I fought him at least a half an hour I really tried..