Can’t stop crying

My boyfriend of 4 years chose another girls feelings over mine 😭 He wanted to protect her feelings over mine, by choosing to still communicate with her rather than thinking of how it’ll make me feel.

When my boyfriend & I split for a few months, I was talking to her ex (I didn’t know he was her ex, then they got back together & she found out about me) I just don’t trust either of them! (My spouse & the girl) I feel like the girl will try something with him because of what happened with me & her ex. It’s hard to trust my boyfriend too because in the past he’s hooked up with his friends that were girls while drunk. 😭 So I’m here bawling my eyes out, and I’m 36 weeks pregnant. 💔 I just feel like I’ve been getting cheated on while my spouse is out of town at work the last 2 weeks!😭 I just heard they’ve been talking & they’re on the same crew… fuck my life. I don’t know what to do 😭 he says they’re just co workers & nothings going on, but if that’s the case why choose her feelings over your girlfriends?💔