Smaller side (penis)

So my boyfriend of 5 years (1 kid together) is on the smaller side. He’s maybe the size of my index finger 😓 I don’t know how many inches that could be. I always hear women saying that they have such great sex lives and love their SO’s penis. I cannot say the same thing. Last night I told him that his size can get in the way of sex. He took is so hard. He said it hurt his feelings and I told him, i’m not trying to hurt your feelings. I’m trying to communicate with you.

Am I supposed to just fake moan the entire relationship and always be unsatisfied after sex? Or am I supposed to communicate with him how I feel? It’s very hard and if you haven’t been in this situation, don’t shame me. I’ve never told him this because I knew the reaction i’d get. He always wants to have sex but I don’t. 😓 It always feels forced to me. Any advice?