I’m such a people pleaser.. 🥺

So my boyfriend is currently mad at me because I told him that it’s not in the budget this week for him to be getting tobacco..

If you’ve seen any of my previous posts which I’m sure you have.. then you already know that my boyfriend can’t hold down a job.. when he finds some thing that he doesn’t like about the job he quits and for the past six years we’ve been living paycheck to paycheck not having money for other important things… why I haven’t got a job yet you ask? well I have had jobs here and there over the past years but we only share one car, & it’s just so hard for us to find childcare and daycare‘s are very expensive…& we are currently in debt for my daughters medical bills and for some previous apartment expenses.

My boyfriend currently owes me $1500 because he just cannot save his money to save his life, so he

has borrowed money for me here in there over this year and it has equaled out to $1500. He doesn’t think that I should owe him because we are “boyfriend and girlfriend” But how I see it is we are not married therefor my money is my money and your money is your money and yes we can save up for the same goal but that doesn’t make our money each other’s!

Like Last week he talked me into buying him a Xbox so I got that out of our savings funds to be able to buy him Xbox!

He said that it would help him stay home and not spend money which it has helped him stay home but it doesn’t help with him spending money on tobacco. He is currently pissed at me because I will not and I mean WILL NOT give him money at this point for anything.

And that is just because I’m so fed up with him I just want to change my life, for me and my kids. Well he gave the argument of “He just gave me $400 on Friday..” mind you he just quit his job so he won’t get paid again for another two weeks or however long it takes him to get a new job. “So I should give him $40 so he can buy tobacco as he needs it” but I don’t see it as a need. I have to sacrifice things that I wanted this week and my kids have had to sacrifice this week he should be able to do the same.

I’m just fed up at this point and really I’m just ranting on this post I am currently looking for a job and I’m hoping that I do get a job very soon because I’m just so done with this I’m ready to move on with my wife and I honestly don’t see him in my future at this point…