postpartum vagina

i’ll be 5 months pp next week and i looked at my vagina and wow i honestly want to cry at how ugly it looks now 🥲 my vagina doesn’t look like how it did before. i had a third degree but i didn’t think i would have like “extra” skin and for it to look as different as it does. did anyone’s vagina eventually go back to looking the same? did it look different? i feel so upset about this and it makes me self conscious to the point where i never want my husband to see my vagina again.