Anxiety and depression

I've come Along way with my anxiety. Last year was the the most depressed I've ever been. My Mom, sister, Niece, and I have had a Rocky few years. Covid year really hit me physically mentally and emotionally, hard. I'm a very Upbeat Positive bubbly person. Last year I kept praying for a Blessing. This year has been better but now it's hard for me to... I don't even know how to word it. I'm watching blessings continue to come in. but it's hard for me to not think about covid year to just live in the moment, and not think of what can happen.

I know the bible says be "anxious for nothing" but I have nothing to do. I have no schedule. My routine is off. My family, they all have things to do while the blessings and changes are happening. I'm just sitting here watching bored. Randomly I'll get a thought like "what if this day is good and tomorrow I get sick like last year 🤦🏾‍♀️"

I don't know what I'm asking for but prayer is in need I feel like I've run out of things to pray about and ask for. I know it's just a conversation with God but honestly i don't know what else to say. I had a gratitude journal and a prayer journal. it became like rep

Repetition. Like now I'm crying because I don't know what else to do. I recently started back knitting to get my mind off of things.

I pray God takes this as a prayer. Because I'm spiritually drained. not in a bad way. More of waiting on a breakthrough.