Feeling down…

How long did it take y’all to find someone who loves you unconditionally? I can go weeks “forgetting” I have this virus but as soon as a man shows interest I just get this down feeling, like I just don’t want to face this reality and don’t want to deal with the possible backlash and wasted time. I’ve disclosed to three people. One person didn’t want a relationship but was fine with having sex. One person was really into me and then it turned to we should just be friends. And the last guy seemed fine and understanding and then all of a sudden I’m blocked. I’m still young (27, diagnosed at 25) but I pictured myself being married or engaged by now and starting a family within the next 5 years. That dream seems to be getting further and further away. I know there’s someone out there for me….I just don’t want to be 50 when we meet 😭 I’m to the point where I’m seriously considering either freezing my eggs or doin something like IVF later on. Idk…I feel like a hopeless romantic.