Birth Plan

I am entering my 3rd trimester this week. My baby’s head is in the 86%. This is my first baby and I’m terrified to push him out. I want so badly to have a csection. My mother and most of the women in my family have had to csection. I know they will try to make me do vaginal. And my doctor said today my baby’s head isn’t too big. The anxiety I’m having is off the charts. I’m trying to be calm but definitely scared I won’t look the same down there. Please comment advice or your experience with bigger head babies that you’ve had to do vaginal with.