Already dreading my pp body with second baby..

So I’m due in 2 weeks and I have felt disgusting for the past 3-4 months, after my first my body went back to normal pretty quick, but this time round I just know it’s never gonna be the same and I am completely dreading it. Don’t get me wrong I am so excited to meet my baby and feel guilty for even feeling sad about my appearance, but I’ve always suffered with thinking I’m too big or too ugly