I should just go right?

He pushed me today.

He got angry as always.

He was arguing with his dad telling me I'm siding with his dad instead of him.

He tells me I'm not his family.

I'm a b%&*

He said I ruined his life and he doesn't want to see me.

All those hurt so much when he knows I struggle with feeling abandoned.

My parents were both deceased by the time I was 16.

I aborted our first child because if not he said he'd leave me.

I hate feeling alone...

We have 2 kids under 5 now.

I wanted my family together.

All I ever wanted was a family.

I got tired of being a sahm especially with covid.

My mental health was horrible.

I went back to work part time a few months ago.

He wasn't happy about that.

He feels he does everything.

I feel I do everything.

We don't speak because I'm scared of making him angry.

He's mad I'm quiet now.

We've been together since I was 16.

I'm just so so sad this is my life.