My bf didn’t come visit me in the hospital

I had an etopic pregnancy and the dr told me good thing I came in today because if I waited any longer I could have died and I had surgery done that same night. I told my bf and he didn’t want to come see me at the hospital he stayed home playing video games. He did tell me before he doesn’t like hospitals ig he had a traumatic event bc he said that’s where his dad died. However he has been to the hospital with me before and he was there another time when I gave birth to our daughter. I just feel like that was a huge test to see if he really loves me or if he would ever really have my back and he failed. Or am I over thinking? Idk