Anxiety after loss

I’m 4 weeks 3 days and feeling less symptoms (or rather they come and go). Anyone else feeling early pregnancy anxiety? I had a miscarriage in April and I’m struggling with this pregnancy feeling “real,” and part of me wishes I could just speed up time so I’m further along and hopefully less anxious? But I also know I want to appreciate this time period, it’s just so nerve wracking. I’m waking up to pee in the middle of the night and checking to make sure there’s no blood! Anyway, still hoping and praying this one sticks ❤️