Vent: FRUSTRATED With This TTC Process

Background: DH (40) and I (38) have been married for 13 years/ together for 18. We’ve only started actively TTC since March of this year (2021) so 6 months. My cycles have always been regular and on time, bloodwork and doc visits including a pelvic ultrasound point to everything is all good in my end.

*Also, yes, I have been temping (bbt) every morning for the last 6 months, I’ve got 3 opk’s that I keep on deck to compare and contrast for optimal timing/pinpointing my ovulation.

I have always kept a well balanced diet and I get plenty of sleep every night. I’ve also been taking: Ubiquinol (aka CoQ-10), prenatal vitamins and DHEA. I completely cut out drinking alcohol (DH doesn’t drink), and neither of us smoke.

We’ve both been taking ProCreation - a multivitamin fertility supplement that’s gender specific so, naturally, he takes the one designed for men and I take the one designed for women.

Plus, my gyno/ob results reflect that my egg quality and reserves are optimal.

Ultimately, he and I both know that he’s got to go see his PCP and a Urologist bc the home sperm analysis (that we used 2 cycles ago) only tells us that he’s got an average/normal sperm count, it tells us nothing related to motility, etc. I hate that since he opted out of health insurance from his employer last year and open enrollment already passed, paying out of pocket to see a doc let alone a specialist, is out of the question.

Anyway, we both agreed to start TTC when we did, but I didn’t count on the unbalanced emotional rollercoaster I’d be forced onto with the anticipation building every month that we BD during my fertile window, only for af to say “surprise *itch, I’m here!”😡😭😩

WHY CAN’T OUR BODIES DO THIS ONE THING IT’S DESIGNED TO DO, WITHOUT ALL THE RED TAPE/COMPLICATIONS?!!

We aren’t getting any younger and my biological clock is tipping over.

thank you for reading my rant..