So this may be a little long so I’m sorry for that.. so I’m 34 weeks pregnant with my 4th son. This baby has a different father than my other children because I left my abusive marriage. Well I ended up getting right back into an abusive relationship and it was way more physical and toxic than my marriage. Me and my boyfriend broke up in July and he kept promising that he was changing, going to do classes etc… so we started hanging out again and preparing for the new baby. We was technically together but not claiming the title until he finished anger management and parenting classes. Fast forward to yesterday he was over and our mutual friend borrowed my car and I was supposed to go pick it up, he had gotten drunk and couldn’t drive back home. So it’s literally 12am and I had to get my kids up and put them in my ex/boyfriends car because he was going to drive me. We started pulling out of my apartment and he opened his phone and stuff with other girls popped up so I immediately looked away and got a little upset because he said he hadn’t been doing anything. But I didn’t say anything and just asked for the address so I could put it in my phone. He immediately got triggered because he thought I was mad even though I hadn’t said anything about what I saw. He started backing up my apartment hill in the dark and finally turned around and floored the gas back to the apartment. It’s very curvy and he was speeding even around the curves as I was screaming at him to please stop because my babies was in the car, we get back to my entrance and he was acting like he was going to drop us off I open my door to get out to get my kids out and he starts backing back up. With my door open and my kids still in his back seat I yell at him to stop to let me get my kids out and he wasn’t listening so I grabbed the gear shift and forced it into park so the car would stop so I could get my babies out, I look to my tight and he says you broke my fucking car and I turn back toward him and out of nowhere he punches me in my face. It was so unexpected to the point I was in shock a couple of seconds before I realized blood was pouring from my nose and lip I screamed and started crying because when that pain hit it was excruciating but to hear my kids in the back seat screaming and scared made me scared even more. My ex looked at me and started driving saying he was going to take me to the hospital, as I was begging him to let me and my kids out I was still crying trying to get him to stop driving and as we approach the entrance of my apartment I turn the car off jump out of the car and grab all my kids and run back to my apartment. He comes back and starts apologizing saying he didn’t mean to that he don’t know why he did it but when we got in the apartment after I got cleaned up and got my kids in bed he was still acting in a angry/aggressive mood. I knew I couldn’t say to much or talk much about it because one wrong word he would break my stuff or hurt me. I didn’t call the cops or tell anyone because I’m terrified DSS will take my kids away, he’s still here at my apartment as he is trying to work things out but anytime I think of what happened I flinch and get very scared. I’m still in shock of what happened and I don’t know what to do. He’s supposed to leave tomorrow because he don’t stay on work nights and I’m trying to act normal and nice until he leaves but I’m terrified. He still seems in a weird mood. Like aggravated/ on edge mood so I’m trying to make sure he doesn’t suspect anything. I just want him gone. I feel so stupid for even thinking he would change. After two months of me doing fine without him I almost gave him another chance and it turned into one of the worst nights of my life. I just need advice or to vent I can’t sleep I’m having bad anxiety especially with him being in here. I don’t know what to do. Please just pray that I can stop going back this time I don’t understand what’s wrong with me 🥺😭😭😭😭