Just so exhausted

Honestly at this point I wish that I could get my entire female reproductive system removed because I’m sick of getting a period when it does decide to show up if it shows up ..I’m sick of being in so much pain I’m curled in a ball crying or sobbing because I’m in pain

I can’t have kids

still haven’t gotten pregnant

Still haven’t been given a clear answer

And I’m told give it time

It will happen when god wants it to

I’m 24 fucking years old I DO NOT WANT TO BE OLD AS DIRT HAVING MY FIRSTBORN JUST FUCKING NO

I AM NOT MY MOTHER

I’m just so exhausted and disappointed and GOD IS A CRUEL BASTARD