Just sad and frustrated

I’m just frustrated.

I’ve had one suspected chemical in July, and a miscarriage last month at 5wks … I’m still technically in my TWW, but for the last two days I’ve been getting very, very faint positives. I thought maybe it was just indents, but they showed up on four consecutive tests (and two different brands) … then today, a stark negative.

I’m 11/12 DPO and I know you’re not out officially until AF arrives, but I can’t help but feel I’ve just had another chemical. I’m so insanely bummed and frustrated with my body. I can obviously conceive… why won’t it stick? :( I know chemicals are very, very common but ugh.

I just need a hug.