bday expectations

I feel like I always am sad on my bday lol. I just had my 21st and on a Monday so I knew it wasn’t gonna be exciting. I didn’t really have plans bc I worked and other friends had classes and I have 4 exams this week. And I have good things going on in my life but I get so sad around my bday I feel like every year. I was also expecting a lot more out of my boyfriend but I know I shouldn’t be mad about that because I didn’t tell him this. But I kinda was hoping he’d take me out to dinner and we’d have a nice night. He didn’t but he did take me out for my first drink at a bar. I’m kinda confused tho bc he didn’t wanna come over after and hang for a little (I also didn’t get bday sex which I was bummed about but that’s something I know I shouldn’t expect or push for. But also he’s like always in the mood so that’s where the confusion is). He does have to wake up early for work in the morning but it was only 8 at that point. He also didn’t get me any sort of gift which he obviously doesn’t need to do but now I feel weird that I got him a nice gift for his bday in 2 weeks. Idk I’m definitely overthinking this and someone’s gonna say some shit even tho it’s hard to explain everything in one post