Do you look at your husbands phone

My husband has had a history of messaging other women, we went to counseling for it and at the time the counselor stated in order for me to heal if I need to look on his phone I can

This was years ago and since I’ve tried to not be so caught up with seeing him on his phone, it was super unhealthy how I became obsessed with looking at his phone. Well recently he got a new phone and has been sleeping with it under his pillow, doesn’t leave it out, basically takes it everywhere. He has pictures of our son and us and he just sends them to me through text.

All those past feelings are literally all coming back, I feel weird asking him for me to even see his phone because I don’t want for him to think I don’t trust him….. The trust was definitely broken before and he’s worked hard to make things better but it’s like I get triggered and now I’m stuck in a place where I don’t want to go back to that obsession of looking at his stuff ugh 😣