I met my father

My mom always told me my dad was a narcissist abuser who beat me and walked out on us. That he was a gaslighter and a horrible person. Thing was.... My mother was all if these things. She was extremely abusive and a narcissist. I watched my mom throw my 16 year old brother out a window. She called me a slut and a whore. Her boyfriend molested me and she blamed me. She said I came on to him. I was only 13 and she made me out on a slutty outfit and "put on a show" in front of her boyfriend and his friends since I want to be a little whore. My brother took his life as 16 because she couldn't deal with her abuse anymore. My mom beat us near everyday. She was arrested 6 months ago and is looking at up to 20 years in prison for voluntary manslaughter. I was left in an apartment I cant afford so got evicted and I moved in with a neighbor. I decided to find my father on Facebook. We met a little over a month ago and he had NO IDEA I EVEN EXISTED!!! He's nothing like how my mom described. He actually said she was abusive and had the restraining order to prove it. I can't believe I spent time afraid of my dad. When my mom was evil..